What If

We have all had those moments in time when we think "what If", I have a few of my own that sometimes cross my crazy brain. Like what if my parents had not died at such an early age, would they loving and caring grandparents to my kids? Or what if I didn't marry my husband, would I still end up with four kids? Would I have any girls? I know it's something that passes through everyones brain. And we know as rational people that there are no "do overs", no "what if's" in life. But we always want to know. I have some crazy thoughts sometimes too, like "what if my favorite singer actually meets me at a destination" will I be scared shitless or will I faint? Or will I just be myself. And What If he thinks I'm the most beautiful woman in the world and wants to wisk me away someplace.....or what if he walks in the room and treats me like he treats his mother!!! maybe because I'm probably the same age!! ha ha but seriously, What if there was another side to life and death? What if it's really true that our soul leaves our body and doesn't die, what if our loved ones are actually really able to communicate with us from another demension? What if all the terrible things that are going on in the world are acts of God? What if we stop fighting and harming each other and live peacefully will God be happy then? What if I had married my first real boyfriend, would we still be together? What about the second, the third, the fourth? What if I married the man my parents wanted me to, would I have been happy? What if there are no answers to these what if's and we have to spend our lives trying to figure it all out on our own? There are so many thousands and thousands what if's that I could fill pages, but I think you all get the gist of it all. I think the answers come from ourselves and how we percieve them. I think choice not chance determines our destiny, not a What If!